The lady between the walls....

I buy me a friend everyday
sometimes its for what i haven't figured
the other times its for pleasure
Today i plan to walk out of here
unchained from this aggravating need

When its over
She notices a stranger in me
She proceeds to ask if the deal was even
I realize its not  the sex that brings me here
hence silence conquers
Until i say to her
"i shall not be visiting again"

She glues my eyes to her's
like a knife through the heart
as she has done many times ,literally
I love it when she does this
but today it tastes blood
"please don't judge me...i know the difference between right and wrong"

I get up and get dressed,muted
Before closing the door on my way out
She searches for me
her painted cheeks, palish by her tears
 and i say....
"But now you know more"